we're all in this thing together
i suppose we all feel like damning it all to hell...at least at certain moments. I don't know what I am doing half of the time and then the other time I feel like I am completely on top of the fucking world. who knows.
carla - the only thing i know to say is be true to yourself. but i have never been in a relationship. all of that shit baffles me and makes me jealous of those who have it. yet then it also scares me - basing so much of my life on another person. so i guess we all do what we can and live our lives. i guess like longfellow i don't have much insightful wisdom (since i can't read the deleted paragraph and all)...but we all do [have insight] of course because we are english majors and we can weave a pretty story and bullshit with the rest of them. but we don't when it comes down to it, because we just know what we know and say what we say. and this is what i have to say. It may not make any sense whatsoever...probably doesn't, but i still write.
just know that I love each and every one of you and i am glad we are friends. our paths crossed at just the right moments and we enjoyed it all. right now i wouldn't mind going back in time for a moment and sitting on longfellow's porch - sipping some cool (cheap) brew, smoking a few hand-rolled cigs and listening to music or discussing some lit. Yet here we are - me in NYC and Carla in Dallas - the boys in KC. Here we are...doing the best we can in our own little worlds. What else can we do but roll with it and try to make the cards deal in our favor - in the favor of what we hope and dream for life?
Okay, so I have spent some credit on beer tonight and now I attempt to write coherent thoughts, but I guess I just hope you can separate the chaff from the grain and understand me through it all.
i love you. And I can't wait to get out of this city sometimes. right now I am okay though - good things are out there...hell, good things are right here around me...but we all fall into that cycle of damnation. but we get through it...right?
as whitman would say...in due time...in due time...
and of course all of that stuff about contradicting myself....that is me all over...i am large and i definitely contain multitudes.
thanks for listening.
s
carla - the only thing i know to say is be true to yourself. but i have never been in a relationship. all of that shit baffles me and makes me jealous of those who have it. yet then it also scares me - basing so much of my life on another person. so i guess we all do what we can and live our lives. i guess like longfellow i don't have much insightful wisdom (since i can't read the deleted paragraph and all)...but we all do [have insight] of course because we are english majors and we can weave a pretty story and bullshit with the rest of them. but we don't when it comes down to it, because we just know what we know and say what we say. and this is what i have to say. It may not make any sense whatsoever...probably doesn't, but i still write.
just know that I love each and every one of you and i am glad we are friends. our paths crossed at just the right moments and we enjoyed it all. right now i wouldn't mind going back in time for a moment and sitting on longfellow's porch - sipping some cool (cheap) brew, smoking a few hand-rolled cigs and listening to music or discussing some lit. Yet here we are - me in NYC and Carla in Dallas - the boys in KC. Here we are...doing the best we can in our own little worlds. What else can we do but roll with it and try to make the cards deal in our favor - in the favor of what we hope and dream for life?
Okay, so I have spent some credit on beer tonight and now I attempt to write coherent thoughts, but I guess I just hope you can separate the chaff from the grain and understand me through it all.
i love you. And I can't wait to get out of this city sometimes. right now I am okay though - good things are out there...hell, good things are right here around me...but we all fall into that cycle of damnation. but we get through it...right?
as whitman would say...in due time...in due time...
and of course all of that stuff about contradicting myself....that is me all over...i am large and i definitely contain multitudes.
thanks for listening.
s
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