Who are you?
Its so easy to become what other people expect us to become. There are the big things that we do "for" our parents -- that are in the end really good for us -- like getting good grades and not making friends with the scary kids, going to college. But then there are things that our parents indoctrinate in us -- that they have preference for -- but in the grand scope of things don't really matter. What clothes to wear, how to talk, where to live, etc... Depending on your parents this could get really detailed (such as with mine -- who even give disappointed looks when they see the little buddha statue I have in my living room).
That said -- I have been starting to wonder -- am I the way I am because this is truly how my mind and body and soul choose to be -- or am I this way because I was taught to be this way? I fear that it is the latter of the two.
So I need to start allowing myself to be a bit freer -- not so afraid of making a mistake. Opening myself up to the possibility that there are other wonderful ways to live. I want to go out and experience more life -- without fear of judgement from my parents. I have taken baby steps that way (I DO live with my boyfriend -- but I feel guilty about it sometimes -- only for my parents tho), but I don't think that I truly know who I am. I have a strong sense or feeling of "who I am" -- but what if this person I have created -- was created in the image of something I'm not.
Any suggestions on something I can do to expand my mind -- or step out my comfort zone?
CD
That said -- I have been starting to wonder -- am I the way I am because this is truly how my mind and body and soul choose to be -- or am I this way because I was taught to be this way? I fear that it is the latter of the two.
So I need to start allowing myself to be a bit freer -- not so afraid of making a mistake. Opening myself up to the possibility that there are other wonderful ways to live. I want to go out and experience more life -- without fear of judgement from my parents. I have taken baby steps that way (I DO live with my boyfriend -- but I feel guilty about it sometimes -- only for my parents tho), but I don't think that I truly know who I am. I have a strong sense or feeling of "who I am" -- but what if this person I have created -- was created in the image of something I'm not.
Any suggestions on something I can do to expand my mind -- or step out my comfort zone?
CD
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